I refuse to give up

I had gastric sleeve surgery in 2012. After that two hiatal hernia repairs. Severe GERD. Then lost my job in 2017. I was already dealing with the loss of my Mom and other things so that was just the straw that well...you know. Severe depression and anxiety about being unemployed for months and then bam...here come the stomach issues.

Gallbladder surgery

I really believe my anxiety, grief and stress brought this on for me. But who knows right? I go to my former weight loss surgeon thinking it's my stomach. I get every test done in the book. Turns out my gallbladder is not functioning....so fast forward to January 2018. Mind you I'm still living my life in the bathroom. I lost another job because of my frequent breaks and call outs. I'm in so much pain and having cramps that literally felt like contractions for hours non stop that I contemplated just ending it. I was over it. I get surgery to get my gallbladder out. Praying that will fix me. It didn't. Things got worse. Much worse. Before it was mostly severe constipation and now it's the runs and constipation alternating. I'm like wth....so then I go to my PCP and have to wait months to get a new patient appointment with the GI doc.

Don't give up

I finally get the colonoscopy...other than diverticulitis he says everything looks fine. He says go home do the fodmap diet all will be well. All was NOT well. That diet did not work for me. So fast forward to now because it's just way too much grossness to subject ya'll too. You know who ended up being the best help for me? ME. I did hella research online. Spent hundreds of dollars on fibers, teas, supplements. Tried some prescription drugs...sadly with no gallbladder I'm not allowed to take many, but I did find one that helps some. Also with GERD some things like peppermint I can't handle either. But I am doing better than before. Don't get me wrong...it's still hard. I'm still stuck in the bathroom many days. I still can't hold down a regular job....but I am finding some things that help a bit. Make it more bearable. Also having a positive attitude helps a lot. Keeping stress low helps....but that's hard.

I'm still trying different things. I have hope in another year I'll be better than I am now. I know this will never go away. I am just trying to improve as much as possible. My advice...everything doesn't work for everybody. Try and try again until you find things that work for you. And don't give up.