So it's been about 20yrs since my Dr diagnosed me, but these last 3/4 years things have gotten progressively worse. I've had a few accidents as episodes just seem to come on so fast and the pain is unbearable and sometimes haven't got to a toilet quick enough. I now have no social life, I won't go anywhere, won't even go with family for a meal due to the embarrassment of needing the loo when I'm out. I'm only 39 but live the life of someone who's 99! I have done gluten free, wheat free etc and still get diarrhea, I just don't know what to do anymore and most days wish I didn't have to eat because at least then I may be able to live normally! Now this is where I do need help. I'm a single mum to 2 boys, and 2 years ago booked a holiday abroad which we go next month. I don't want to go, I'm petrified, especially at the thought of being stuck on a plane for 2.5 hours and then 1 hour on a coach to the resort. We are there for 10 days, on a half board basis but I don't have any intentions of eating anything. Can anyone please help me, does anyone have any hints, tips, advice to help me get through this holiday, I am so scared. I know I probably sound so pathetic, but the closer it gets the more scared I become. I've become such a hermit, I've had to so I can always be close to a toilet this is just something I am not used to. Can I can immodium everyday? Is there anything at all I can do. Please help, so I can possibly enjoy some of this holiday. Thankyou.