Hi everyone,
This is going to be long but please bear with me. I made a post on here a few months ago about having extremely bad health anxiety about having bowel cancer because I was having black specks in my stool despite having had my third colonoscopy in August that came back clear. You were really supportive back then and I feel like I have nobody else to talk to. Basically a few weeks ago I decided to do a stool sample for the doctor because I was paranoid again and I rarely look when going to the bathroom because of my fear but for obvious reasons this time I had to. When I looked it looked normal except it smelled really bad and was covered in mucus and had a little bit of blood on the outside (disgusting I know) but obviously that completely sent me into a downward spiral and I got the results back from the doctor today and as I already knew it came back positive for blood. However they said that since I only had a normal colonoscopy literally three months ago it would be pointless to be referred to see the specialist again. And they said they thought it was my haemorrhoids again because every time I’ve been sent for a colonoscopy for bleeding they found haemorrhoids. When I did the particular sample I didn’t feel any pain though is it possible to have bleeding internal haemorrhoids without pain and despite having them banded a few months ago could it have failed or more could haemorrhoids have developed. I don’t exactly eat the best diet and do enough exercise though. Anyway because of this fear of having cancer it’s completely destroyed my life I don’t want to eat I can’t sleep I have panic attacks. Even typing this is horrible. The fear is unbearable. I’ve always thought that if I ever had anything like cancer I would not want to face it and would rather end it. Do you think I should pay for a private fourth colonoscopy or is that just feeding into my fear. I’m only 26 and have no family history of it. Advice and reassurance is desperately needed.