Hi there my first post, I've been diagnosed with IBS.
2019 September was the first time I felt a health issue whilst away on family holiday I had a few drinks and the sharp piercing gut upper abdominal area like I had been stabbed which started only when I drank alcohol. Then 1 drink black vomit but over the 3 years I thought it will go away. It hasn't the past 2 month has been the worst pain I've ever experienced. It's 24/7 I'm so bloated tender and upper abdominal area is rock hard and sensitive at the same time.
I had to hand in stool samples and get bloods done. My stool hasn't been solid for 2 years and over time the colour is changing when I handed in stool sample it was "hulk green" blood test came back I have liver abnormalities. I eat once a day as I constantly feel full and in pain I'm always in good shape fitness and health wise 36 years old and until now in almost 2 decades I can count on 1 hand how many times I've been to doctors. I've been more in past 2 month than my whole life.
Said I'm overweight which I am I ate around 500-800 calories a day no matter what I eat oats, veg, eggs etc or junk food example mcdonalds if I treated myself to mcdonalds it would be 2 burger no chips or juice so let's say 1500kcal which is still 1000kcal under males intake. I can't lose a single pound anymore my body just isn't working.
I know everything about my body up until lately I've always ate clean for 6 month during warmer months ( scotland) and in winter I just eat whatever this is pre what's going on right now. I get in shape within 10 weeks dropping crazy amounts of bodyfat etc... eating 900kcal a day fasting 20 hours works for me I felt amazing every single year until 2019.
I feel happier healthy confident clean inside and out my sex drive increase I'm.more hyper and energetic I'm very OCD with my appearance I like to look and feel good for me and ofcourse my wife and daughter. I take pride in everything I do just the way I am.
That's all gone all shattered because this pain in upper abdominal area is constantly 20/10 on a pain scale it's that bad I've been so close to going to A&E but my GP says no go through correct steps which I am but it feels slow and not going anyplace fast. I have a ultrasound coming up in 2 weeks I'm worried they find nothing as I can't live another 30-40 years in this pain. But hopefully they see something I think it's much worse than IBS. But I could be wrong it feels now like a lamp post thickness is being speard right through my stomach and gut upper abdominal area. I can't do simple chores around the house that's how bad it is. I havent drank alcohol in 2 years now. I went out in April for a meal and had to leave almost immediately as I was overheating and about to faint it was only 12degress that day. I went home and passed out for several hours. The pain has always been there but it was managble at times now its not it almost feels impossible to get through a day. I want to feel normal again.
They started me off with operzole and that was twice a day for 2 months my stool changed colour and now normal colour but never solid... now started on second part of treatment Mebeverine which has only been a week and making it worse.
I've researched so much my gut is huge I look pregnant and usually I have a six-pack at this time of year its like lots of fluid Is leaking inside and my lower stomach is starting to hang I'm disgusted how I look and feel because this isn't me. I rarely look in the mirror because I hate what I see. That was never the case. I can't go out I can't eat even though my mind saying you need ro eat but constantly feel full all the time. Hence why I only consume very little calories a day.
I'm going to hospital in 2 weeks hopefully they see or find the root of the problem as I don't think it's IBS.
Despite all that I'm not anxious person or shy I wear double xxl tshirts and xl jacket and have a younger style taste in clothes so in winter my favourite time of year because I can hide it more but its bigger than ever and harder to hide and harder to manage a date night to cinema something so simple. I dread eating because it gets worse no matter what I eat.
I have some liver damage too as blood said but they don't know how much assuming ultrasound might pick up on that. But 2 weeks until scan 2 weeks for results and I'm struggling to live day to day my pain is so severe some days I just don't want to be here but I am and I'm trying to convince myself soon I'll be fixed... I'm not a worrier or scared of anything really apart from they can't find the root of the problem. Because 30 plus years I cannot live like this and out my wife and 15 year daughter and loved ones around and through this as my mood is constantly low because of this.
I'm on mitrazapline aswell but it cannot override the pain which makes me feel low so it's very hard to change my mood. I was always a happy smiling type guy and he's nowhere to be seen. I feel broken inside I can't make and keep people around me happy or satisfied because my sex drive libido is non existent right now and I've always had crazy sex drive but if I go to have it I know I'm gonna be in so much pain after it which who's partners wants to know or see or hear that. And it's so hard to tell her it is me I have a problem bit women sometimes think it's them but in this case it's me I'm just broken qnd feel like half the man I was.
I just want the pain to go away I want to wake up and have a spring in my step I want normality in my life I wanna travel the world like we did 4-5 times a year. We were both financially well but I'm jobless because of this I worked my way up to manager and left to pursue another career with almost double the money but couldn't work anymore because my stomach. Its heartbreaking because I want to work I want to live life to the fullest and travel everywhere. Both around mid 30s and daughter is about to be 16 and she has plans for her life so soon she will be gone maybe by 40 years old and I can only imagine the life we will have.
Will have emptiness syndrome lol with her leaving to pursue her career but that part of live but I want ro fill my life with memories and great times upto 2019 I jave the best life anyone could ask for... I just want it back.