I want to pour my heart out. Just for the sake of what happend today was overwhelming. Maybe some of you will recognise your own experience in the story.
I'm a ibs-c type but mosy of the time I'm quiet lucky tbh because most of the time my symptoms are just bloating and constipation.
So because of constipation I started to take macrogel a few days ago. I think I upped the dosage to fast or maybe it's just not suitable for my gut at all..
You probably can guess what happend. The opposite of constipation...
Again luck because it was not much and I could find the toilet on time. No drama yet. But then what happend is I got cramps and pain in the gut. It felt likt there was a big rock inside of me that was too big and that that the rock had sharp edges... every time I moved the wrong way it felt like the sharp edges pushed painfully against the gutwalls. It was super painful. So painful I needed to stop the lessons I was following at school. I felt so embarrassed but also very sad. I liked the lesson I was following at that moment and did not want to leave ..I actually stayed for over an hour with the pain because I refused to leave...but I just could no longer stand to be in pain in a classroom full of people and without a hot water bottle...If I would have stayed I would have been in pain for 3 hours and no water bottle...my concentration was so low I just had to leave. This with mush shame.
When I was traveling home I could pass some gass and I felt not in much pain anymore... I just felt the constipation rock fullness but without the hard edge...
This was so overwhelming to experience...
Sorry if some of you expierence this kind of pain and discomfort daily. I do not, i only do sometimes but still it impactect the way I feel about this ibs-c... I feel hopeless and scared that it has gotten worse somehow. I'm scared how it controls my life. I worry that what if I will get more regularly painful moments...
How do you cope with these feelings?
What is your story?