Low Fodmap and eating disorder

Hi,

I am doing the low fodmap diet and am in the reintroduction phase. It has come out - during the Low Fodmap diet - that I can't tolerate bread and also grains and starch in potatoes. This caused me to have intestinal cramps but also yellow stools. Nausea and so on. In Holland it's eating a lot of bread and a lot of grains. Eating bread is done 2 times a day. And I do not know what to do now to replace it. Because of this I eat rather one-sided: in the morning always egg, tomato, lactose free milk and 2 strawberries. In the evening always mackerel and lactose-free yogurt. I am sensitive to all fodmaps and it is really a horrible puzzle for me and also for my dietitian.

Because I just can't have the yummy things and especially no cookies, no bread etc. (wheat is a big culprit too) I notice that my eating disorder is reappearing. So this was a binge eating disorder with tendencies towards bulimia. I get up with thoughts of food and I go to bed with it. I am constantly thinking about food and it is so hard for me not to give in to not eating things that my gut is sensitive to. Sugar, grains, etc. I don't know what to do. I don't want to be back in my former pattern and certainly don't want to gain weight. I feel sad and irritated that I can't eat what the people I live with can eat. Partying is an absolute horror. People can eat and drink delicious things and I sit there with a glass of water and fruit. I just can't seem to accept my situation yet.

I have talked to my family doctor about it, but there is nothing he can do for me.

Please, help me and give me advice. I just don't know anymore!