I wish my peers would see that I cannot always do what they can do. I cannot always sit in a classroom and pay attention when my body is burning with pain. I cannot sleep soundly when I am woken to run to a bathroom. I cannot go to parties and drink the night away because in the hours following I will be stuck in a bathroom once again. I wish they could see that I have memorized every scratch and incline of the bathroom I spend my time in. I wish they could see the struggle of carefully going through every food item available and finding that not one of them will settle quietly. I wish they could understand that while I enjoy many different foods, I can no longer eat any of them. I wish they could see that I do not wish to hinder them in their fun and happiness, but I must do what I have to to remain stable for as long as possible. I wish they could see that I do care, and that the care I give will stress me out and cause the pain to return. I wish they could see that I try to be normal.