Will I Ever Be the Old Me?
Last updated: September 2021
Do you ever get in those mental funks and think about how life would have been without dealing with the complexities of IBS?
In my case, I was diagnosed with IBS and Crohn’s Disease back in 2011. It’s been a difficult journey, to say the least, and I always find myself thinking about how different my life would look if I hadn’t been diagnosed.
I think this is completely normal to go through and to go through often. We are human, right?
My IBS past
In my case, personally, I never had digestive issues. I didn’t even have food allergies. I could eat whatever I wanted when I wanted. I enjoyed food and always had a healthy relationship with it. My life, looking back, was swell. No health issues. No issues with food. I was blessed.
Then at 21 years old, like a slap in the face, I got ill, and I got ill fast. Within 2 months, I went from being exceptionally healthy to struggling to walk to the bathroom on my own. Not to mention the intense urgency that was so insane for me to experience. I became a slave to my bed and bathroom.
Looking back at all I have endured since 2011 is wild. A silver lining in this all is how strong I have become and patient I am when dealing with symptoms. I feel like if the average person had to spend a day in my shoes, they would give up before noon.
Mornings with IBS
Mornings are always hard. I am in the washroom for typically at least an hour every morning dealing with uncomfortable bowel movements. Sometimes I throw up due to unpleasant cramping. But once the episode is done, I go on with my day as if nothing happened. I know you can relate.
Often, I am in and out of the restroom until late morning or early afternoon, but I go through the motions without getting frustrated. It’s just become my reality. And I would lie if I had some days where I get annoyed because I can’t really make plans in the early morning. It’s nearly impossible.
Oh, what would life be like if I could wake up early and not have to worry about being a slave to the toilet? I could get a solid morning routine going. Work out. Have breakfast. Shower. Dress. Not be bothered with symptoms and start tackling work and errands with vigor? What a life!
The sad thing is that used to be my life. I used to be so productive and organized, and I used to have productive mornings.
Will I ever be the old me again?
I think I have finally come to terms with the fact that no, I will never be that person again. However, I will be someone entirely different. And even though I won’t be able to do what I used to in the past, I can operate with more wisdom and understanding in my future. And you know, that doesn’t seem so bad, so that I will embrace it.
Do you ever ask yourself the question: will I ever be the old me again? Do you struggle with this, or have you learned to embrace the new you? Share below!
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