I feel exhausted and tired of IBS.

Nice to be part of this forum; I was diagnosed IBS in 2011 after a severe Diarrhea episode one night, was also bleeding light blood and always was struggling with my stomach problems. They did a colonoscopy with a biopsy and showed IBS after all these test. I had to manage a new life, no sodas, no junk food, I remenber the Doc words when I asked how do I know what to eat or not to eat? he replied...you can´t...you just have to play with the food and see what causes you bad IBS. I quit sodas, mexican, changed into heatlhy food, water everyday, and it helped but...not 100%. Problem is I developed Hypocondriac disorder. Everything little IBS problem quickly brings to my mind I developed a Colon Can***. Every little byte I take to my mouth I am thinking if it will blow me up and send me straight into the WC. Causes me strong anxiety depression..I live in constantly fear...I went to Psico tretatment and one of the things the Doc said when you go to the WC just go do your thing, and flash the toilet and Bye. This will make your anxiety proggresively fade away. It helped but when I use the WC the need to look if stool has blood etc eats me up. Eventhough I managed and when I think calmy I usually come to the point that, if you had a canc** you would have passed already and not since 2022 still alive and kicking. The true is I feel tired...mentally, exhausted, I am only 56 tuned 12 May and feel I am in my last life days. I just wanted to share this and someone to talk...I am sure many of you are in my same boat. God bless you